There is a secret. A secret I have grown up with. It has given me strength all these years. I have never told anyone of this secret. May be that is why it has worked? Or is it something everyone has? I am letting it out today! Why? I think it has stopped working. It was a simple one, I believed I was INVINCIBLE. Since I was a kid I had an innate faith in myself. I could just change it around IF I wanted it. Being a smart and lazy kid, I did not want to change it around all the time. Whenever things have gone awry, I have been able to put them right. I knew I could and they would simply untangle and become alright! But I think it has gone. I don't feel invincible anymore. There is something I have put my heart and soul into and yet it remains unchanged even if I have wanted to change it.
When ever I saw one of those movies where one of the partners is too involved with their work and the other felt ignored, I knew I would never be either of them. I would respect my partner's work and ambition and I would most certainly choose a partner who respected mine. Yet, here I stand. Trying hard to balance my work and my relationship. I did not know when I became "one-of-those" women! And no, there is nothing wrong in being one but I guess I never saw myself in the list. And this is where the secret has failed. It doesn't work. How I wish I could put it right since I so badly want to. But to no avail.
First I wonder, When did I become so ambitious? So ambitious so as to put my work ahead of my relationship? something I have never done or have thought of doing! Is there another change in the offing?
Then I struggle with putting it all right.
May be i'll discover a new secret and all will be fine!!
When ever I saw one of those movies where one of the partners is too involved with their work and the other felt ignored, I knew I would never be either of them. I would respect my partner's work and ambition and I would most certainly choose a partner who respected mine. Yet, here I stand. Trying hard to balance my work and my relationship. I did not know when I became "one-of-those" women! And no, there is nothing wrong in being one but I guess I never saw myself in the list. And this is where the secret has failed. It doesn't work. How I wish I could put it right since I so badly want to. But to no avail.
First I wonder, When did I become so ambitious? So ambitious so as to put my work ahead of my relationship? something I have never done or have thought of doing! Is there another change in the offing?
Then I struggle with putting it all right.
May be i'll discover a new secret and all will be fine!!